In the moments that I can't imagine life getting any sweeter God drops another piece of the puzzle and I'm reminded that even when we can't see him working he's always one step ahead. He's always laying out the path before us. And because of that my heart yearns to run- to follow him, to give my life for all that he's given me.
I look around sometimes and can't imagine that he has blessed me with all of this. He handed me my heart's desire in the form of a career. He's blessed me with an amazing set of friends and family. Opened up the doors to an amazing church in my new hometown and a great small group. Blessed me with a sweet family to stay with who are the closest thing I have to a second set of parents.
Over the course of the last week or so and then today in church I've been surrounded by this verse: Then he called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will save it. (Mark 8:34, 35 NIV)
I realized over three years ago I was willing to give up my life. And I would do it again in a hardbeat. Giving up my life for the sake of the gospel is one of the best things I've ever done. His plan has always been better then mine. I'm thankful that over the years he's chipped away at the woman I was to reveal the woman I was always meant to be.
I know that laying down my wishes and dreams and desires is difficult. It's difficult in the moment to say I'm willing to walk away if you have something else in mind- because I know from experience whatever He puts on the table before me is worth far more.
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