Week 1

I can't sleep. So I decided to blog instead. I am one week and a day past shoulder surgery. I have a feeling I might like to read these along the way. So here we go! 

I had my first post-op appt on Wednesday. I was cleared to shower which in and of it's self was a huge moment. Not showering or washing your hair for a week is too long. 

I was so excited for said shower that I didn't pay much attention to my shoulder. 

I can take it out of the sling. It's stiff, it's sore and it doesn't work. That probably sounded funny because I just had surgery but my arm doesn't work. 

I can't pick it more then a few inches from my side. I can barely write. I can't put my hair in a ponytail. 

But I start PT next week. 

I know I can do this. I know that I will get there. One day at a time. One moment and milestone at a time. I'm thankful right now for a repaired shoulder and the chabce to make a comeback. 😊

Chapters

Everyday we hear stories of new chapters in life. 

For my best friend it was getting her social security card with her new last name. A new chapter in her life has started. And I texted her this: 

Just think it's a new chapter is this book called life. It will have it's up and downs like any good story but the best part is you get to be a part of that story. Write it however you want. :)

Later I got a card from my mom with well wishes about my surgery with some money inside. 

And I read a story about my friend's adoption and how some paperwork expired and it's delayed them bringing home their boys. 

I realized something about stories today.   

We always want to go back to past chapters and change the ending but we can't. The future isn't found in the yellowing of the well worn pages of the past. The future has yet to be written- so we must embrace the present. Remember every laugh, every moment, every memory. Makes those moments the best. That way we won't have any fear of the ending because we lived the very best one.

As this realization settled over me today I was thankful for my life, my story, and this chapter. For the amazing people in it. Over the last week I've come to realize how incredibly important they are, how much I love them and how richly they add to my story. 

I have a feeling our stories are turning our pretty awesome. 

Wedding season

It's hard to believe the beginning of November is here and that in two months 2013 will be over. I swear time flies faster everyday and I try so very hard to be in the moment- to treasure today for what it's worth. Over the course of the last two months I have had the most amazing privilege of standing up for my three best friends on their wedding day. 

The first wedding was my best friend Amy Nicole Ballinger (now Wildey) and her husband Tyler. I can't think of a couple that is cuter then these two- they make me laugh everytime I'm around them and I love them for it. 

My maid of honor speech pretty much sums up our friendship and I'm so glad I was able to be there to share in their special day. 

I had a saying I told Amy a lot when we were in college- it's easier to know where you are going when you can remember where you came from. 

So let's take a little trip down memory lane- for those of you that don't know me I'm marge. And Amy and I have been best friends since freshman year of high school, that was only 14 years ago...but who's counting. Who knew biology class would form a long lasting friendship? 

Through high school we formed an amazing group of friends who stand up here today- they truly have become family. We, like any normal teenage girls, had a ton of fun in high school- camping trips, first speeding tickets, motorcross races, and knee surgeries.

Fast forward into college- Amy and I ended up going to school three hours away but she still managed to move me into my dorm room, attend football games, go camping, and let's not forget the ever epic trip to Vegas in the summer of 2006. A story I'll save for some other day- because I know at some point she will be saying this same speech at my future wedding and who knows what stories she might decide to tell. 

In Jan 2011 she was the most amazing best friend ever and drove across the country to move me to Texas. A few months later I got a phone call that she had met a guy and she really really really liked him. I got all the details on this guy named Tyler and I knew even though I was 1,500 miles away there was something different about the way she talked about him. Luckily that summer I was able to make it back for our annual camping trip and he was coming with her. I was fully prepared to grill him and pull the best friend card. But I remember as he got out of the jeep I didn't have to. There was something about the way he looked at her and cared for that made me smile. I knew she had found someone special.

Over the course of the past two years Tyler's family has welcomed me in when ever I've been back in California and I've gotten to know the Wildey family very well. I'm thankful that even though I'm not here on a regular basis that Amy has been welcomed into a family full of love and laughter. 

I remember so many times talking about our future and what that would like and how that story would play out- and I'm so thankful for this chapter for you both. I love you both so much and I'm thankful that at the end of the day love brought you together and we all get to celebrate that with you! 

The second wedding has been a special day in the making for over 8 years. Jess and her husband Jesus mean the world to me and she is the closest thing I've ever had to a sister. One of our dear friends married them and their vows were perfect. I cried through most of it :) 

This was my attempt at sharing how much they mean to me in my Maid of Honor speech::

A 16th century french poet once said as rare as true love is, a true friendship is even rarer. Recent studies also show that if a friendship lasts 7 years it will last a lifetime. So a friendship that has survived 23 years is special and rare and whether she likes it or not we'll be friends for a lifetime. But when you've been friends for that long where do you start? 

Our adventures as best friends started in kindergarten. I was the overly bossy and extremely loud one and Jess was the quiet reserved child with bouncing curls. Even though for most of our lives we've been polar opposites we've always balanced each other out. 

We survived the awkward years of growing up by staying up late, eating too much cookie dough and drinking too much dr. Pepper. In high school much to everyone's surprise Jess had the lead foot when we started driving- scoring her first speeding ticket when she only had her paper license. 

Fast forward to college. Fresno State is where this all started - Jess and Jesus met in 2005 and as they like to say the rest is history. 8 years, 2 kids, several moves and jobs later- here we are. Celebrating the love that has binded these two together through thick and thin, no matter what. 

When i sat down to write this I happened to find an old email that i had written Jess in the spring of 2009...we were closing in on our 24th birthdays and she needed a pep talk about life and everything that comes with it.

This is what it said: 

But that's part of the journey. You have no real idea where you will be in five, ten years. Just like 10 years ago we didn't really know where we would be today. But the greatest part of these journeys is knowing who's around to catch you when you fall or to stop you when feel like jumping off some cliff. 

This adventure called marriage, this adventure called life, this adventure called raising children is all part of the journey. All part of who you two are and who you two will become. No matter where the future takes you remember that- remember the journey, remember the adventure but most of all remember the love. 

The last wedding I was in was for two people that I love and admire so very much. I'm thankful that when planning their special day they not only wanted me their but they chipped in with the rest of our best friends to get me there. I don't think words can ever express how thankful I am for what they did. 

Their love reminds me that you never know how a story will turn out- how many turns and twists it will take to get you back to your one and only. But they have proven it's worth the wait. 

These three women are my best friends. They have been there through the happiest days and the saddest days. They have been there for my best moments and my worst and I am so thankful for their contiuned friendship and love through out the years. I will treasure my memories from these weddings and the chance to stand up for my best friends on their very special days. 

Love you ladies!