As I let that reality sink in I realized every little moment along the way mattered. The moment I turned down a cookie dough cupcake for the rec center's 1st birthday mattered. The moment I walked away from the cookies at bunco before my willpower dissolved. They have all mattered and that makes me so very happy.
The other day a friend asked if I will ever eat junk food ever again. I wasn't sure of my answer. I probably will. I will probably partake in a piece of wedding cake at my friend's weddings in September. And I'm ok with that. But I also know my limits. I know that sugar is my greatest weakness. I also know when I avoid it the 'crack meter' in my brain that tells me I need it goes away. I feel better, I perform better, I sleep better. I do know that my life will never be the same and I will never go back to my old habits.
I'm enjoying being the fittest and smallest version of me that I've ever been in my entire adult life. I went from a size 16 pants, size XL tops, size 42DD bra, to a size 10 pants, size M top, and a 38 C bra. I've lost 37 pounds since January and I don't ever plan on finding it again. This new me is permanent.
I still have a few goals as I progress into this new version of me: to weigh under 200 pounds. Currently I sit at 206. I plan on fighting for every pound.
To all my friends that are trying to get healthy and stay healthy, keep working at it! You can do it. It takes a lot of fight and good decisions to get you there but I know you can do it. Your future self will thank you. Cheers to getting healthy and staying there!
I Love you! I am oh so very proud of you, as a fellow sugar, junk food addict I understand how hard this has been for you but you are taking it with stride and you don't complain about a thing! You are amazing!!!! Keep it up friend and know you have many people cheering you on!
ReplyDeleteThanks Beck!!!! Love you too :) Thanks for being so awesome and supportive when I came to visit.
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